in dafe mikham kutah benevisam. har ruz ke migzare, chizayi baram pish miad ke nakhaste adam un ro ba iran moghayese mikone. ye tamrini be ma dadan ke jam avari kardan reference haye mokhtalef ba estefade az ye narm afzare makhsus hast. yaani maghalat , tez ha va article haye journal ha va conference ha, juri ke farda dastrasi be un ha besyar asun bashe.
chandin bar majbur shodam ke beram ketabkhune va CD begiram ya inke password begiram va... saate 1 baad az zohr va hameye karmandan raftan nahar, man az bas mashghule karha hastam ke aslan az saate ruz khabar nadaram. vaghti gir kardam va raftam pishkhan (counter) ta inke moshkele passwpord o hal konam, az didam ke hame raftan o faghat yek nafar hast, bedune inke be saatam negah konam fahmidam ke nahare, khanume dasht ba Tel harf mizad, ta residam be counter boland shod o umad va azam khast ta khasteye khodam o begam, in avvalin bar nabud, chandin o chand bar pish umade bud ke har moghe ke vaymisti joloye pishkhan emkan nadare ke yeki nabashe ke javabet o bede, yani inke jome, shanbe, ruze tatil o shab o ruz o vaghte nahar o namaz o .... nadarim, MOTALE E ZAMAN NADARE, PAS HAMSIHE EMKANATESH BAYAD FARAHAM BASHE.
az tarafi ketabkhune be andazeyi karmand dare ke gheyre ghabele bavar hast, hamashun be soorate takhassosi, har moghe berin pisheshun ba tamame jun o del kar mikonan baratun, emruz ma saate 3-3.5 raftim va az khanumi ke masoole hamin narm afzar bud kolli soal porsidim, dar haghighat hameye tamrin ha ro azash porsidim, bavar konin az bas ba hosele va aramesh tozih dad ke man khodam be khodam migoftam, "baba ajab hoseleyi dare in" taze injash jalebe ke goft man farda kollan inja hastam faghat saate 2 jalase darim ke nim saat bishtar tool nemikeshe, hatman age bazam moshkeli dashtin ya nafahmidin biayn. taarof nemikard, yaani ina tarof nadaran, mesdaghe harfe Dr. Kaveh ke migoft: "adam yek roftegar e movaffagh bashe kheyli behtar az ine ke ye mohandese na movaffagh bashe"
hala ina ham dar har shoghli hastan, az bas ba vejdane kari kar mikonan ke adam vaghean mifahme ke agar yek roozi bekhad too in system shoghli dashte bashe hatman bayad behtarin bashe.
va amma hamin chiza ke sare shoma ha bishtar az man umade, nashod ma ye bar berim az ketab khune ye estefadeye doros bokonim, ya 4 ta maghale search konim, ya hamash masoolane site dashtan bazi mikardan, ya hamash nahar o namaz bud ya inke daneshgah p00l ro be hesabe daneshgahe connection narikhte bud va una ham shabake ro ghat karde budan, amma inja az bas manabe dar ekhtiaret hast ke gahi hamash fek mikoni khab mibini.
bavar konin, inayi ke migam aslan taarife bija nis, tehran ye shahre ke che arz konam, ye jayi hast ke kholase 13 million too ham miloolan o har jash dar har saati ye ettefaghi miyofte, amma inja ye shahre kuchik hast, man hameye ina ro mifahmam, amma yeki az bache ha inja hast ke taze mige ke baba ina aslan be ghanun ahamiyyat nemidan, montreal kheyli ghanunmand tar az ina hastan, man goftam ke manzuret chie? vaghti az 20-30 metri barat ist mikonan ke rad beshi dige bishtar az ina chikar bokonan? goft: inja gahi ke to vaymissi ina rad mishan, va aksaran ham negah midaran, amma montreal ke bozorgtar az injas, emkan nadare negah nadaran,
albatte gonde tarin shahr haye leshvar haye pishrrafte be andazeye tabriz o esfahan o ina ham nemishan hala che berese be tehran, paris khodesh 1 million jamiyyateshe ke ba suburbesh mishe kolli, ya inke toronto ke bozorgtarin shahre canadast 3 million nafare.
aksi ke bala gozashtam akse saate karie ketabkhune hast, az 8 sob ta 10:30 shab, ruzaye taatil ham ke hastan va mitunin bebinin. inam site esh age khastin check konin ke motamen shin: http://bibliotheque.uqac.ca/
yadame ye bar karemun oftad vezarate rah, mahe ramezun ham bud, azan saate 7 ina bud va edare ta saate 4 (un moghe aghaye khatami andazeye ahmadi nejad mehrabun nabud) ye nameye moarrefi mikhastan bedan, az sobh ke asir shode budim bedune nahar o ina, akharsh saate 2:30 be ma goftan ke berin farda biayn, dige yavash yavash azane!!!! kesani ke ba man budan, mehdi azadvari bud, pezhman pendar bud va chand ta az bache ha bud ke man alan yadam nis
bezarin jaryane khanum bilit furushar o nagam ke dige ende masooliyat paziri, vejdane kari va vaght shenasi va khadamate.. akharin ruzayi bud ke tehran budam, raftam ta bilite edari begiram, saate 10 ina bud, raftam didam hamkare gerami nistan, az otaghe baghali porsidam nistan? goft miad... (tebghe mamul) vaysadim, hey rah miraftam, kolli kar dashtam o gereftar budam, 5 min, 10 min, 15 min, 20 min, nayumad. dar in asna ham ye seri umadan o raftan, engar una chizi midunestan ke man neidunestam, bazam az otaghe baghali porsidam, agha in MIAD??? goft bia tu baradar, man nakhastam begam rafte.....? goftam bebin be jaye inke harfaye tekrari bezani ye abi be ma bede, absard kon o neshun dad o ma ham ye livan zadim be yade emam hossein. daghighan 50 min neshastam, baradaremun goft ke miad, dir nemikard, goftam baale, ma ham rah ahani hastim, in mamlekat ham bozorg shodim, nun o ham ba dahan mikhorim, ina ro ham didim o mifahmim, kholase uamd... yek saati shode bud
ta dar o baz kard, kolli rikhtan unja, ye seri neshastan, man vaysade budam, chizi nemigoftam, yeki umad o mesle ... raft o shooroo kard be harf zadan, entezar dashatm ke bege ke nobate ishune ya ye hamchin chizi, amma shooroo kard bara taraf donbale ja gashtan, tel zang khord, shooroo kard ba un sohbatr kardan, nemidunam ki bud, ettelaat o nevesht o ... kare marde rah nayoftad, raft ke baadan biad, shoroo kard kare yaruyi ke tel zade bud o karash o mikard, hich tavajjohi be man nadasht, hatta nagoft ke beshinin. dar hamin asna mobilesh zang zad, entezar dashtam reject kone ya inke bege man saram shulughe amma shooroo kard be harf zadan, engar kesi unja nabud, man arum arum ehsas kardam hava garm shode va fesharam dare mire bala, tasmim gerefte budam in ruzaye akhar o chizi nagam o bikhial e hame chiz besham.
daghighan yadam nemiad, amma nim saati tool keshid ta inke masalan nobat be man berese ye searchi kard o goft 4 takhte nis va 6 takhte hast, bilit o bara khodam nemikhastam mikhastam bara pedar o madaram begiram ke mikhastan bian bara badragheye man, unja avvalin kari ke kardam ye fohsh be gerun shodan benzin dadam, chon bilite havapeyma fatahash khunde shod bahash. baadesh zang zadam be pedaram ke goft velesh kon baba, ma khodemun miaym, man goftam migiram hala age nakhastin ham nayayn, zarari nadare. neshun be un neshun ke vaghti bad az 2 saat movaffagh shodim shahram nateghi ham man o did. hatta goft ke montazer bash alan mashin miad, ke man ham goftam systeme ma mashalla system montazere emam zamane, farda ham chizi beshe mindazan gardane din o mazhab, emam zaman montazere injuri nemikhad ke, un montazer ye chize digast ke man o to maanish o nagereftim
dah ha morede moshabehe in va hatta badtaresh o mitunam mesal bezanam, khoda vakili man khodam karam arbab rujuyi nabude amma hargez kare kesi ro dirtar az unche ke bayad anjam nadadam. bara hamine ke vejdanam rahate va rahat mitunam sohbat bokonam, sohbat haye man ham bazam migam, aslan moakheje ya maskhare kardan o negh zadan nis, serfan yek moghayeseye sadast. man mikham begam, dorost shodan e ye system az dorost shodan e khodemun shooroo mishe, va hargez dorost shodane system o az baghie shooroo nemikonan (ghable tavajjohe modiran va roasa)
amoozeshe sarbazi ke budim, padegane ghasre firooze, niroo havayi tehran, man arshad e tey kesh ha shode budam, yaani hafteyi bud va hafteye avval oftade bud be man o chand ta az bache haye dige, age ta ghabl az sobhgah tamum nemishod hafteye baad ham bayad tey mikeshidim, guruh haye dige arshadeshun hamash shaki budan ke in ha kar nemikonan, bache haye shoma kheyli khuban, migoft man mifrestam ab biaran yaru dige nemiad. man goftam ke bache haye man o shoma farghi ndaran, farghesh ine ke man avval khodam jaru ro migiram dastam o shooroo mikonam be kar kardan va vaghti migam chand nafar az bache ha ab biaran una ham ba kalle miran, amma nemidunam az koja ja oftade ke karshenas masool kar nabayd bokone, rayis nabayad nameh type kone ya inke modir hamash bayad jalase bashe va karaye digeyi mesle communication ba personnel, karaye shakhsi mesle motale e va ... anjam nade? man ye maghale az hamin bahs dar sale pasokhguyi be mardom neveshte budam ke age kesi khast mifrestam, kollan revayat az ghoran o nahjolbalaghe va aemme athar hast, va dideshun nesbat be bahse masool o masooliyat o rayis o maroos hast.
un karmandi ke gharer chand deyge baad biad ya uni ke 4-5 saat munde be azan eftaresh nazdik mishe taghsiri nadare, kheyli emkan dare man ham jaye un budam badtar az un budam, ama ta key bayad ghorbani moarrefi kard o khodemun o gul zad? man in theory to too raja dadam, be mohandes naseri ham goftam ke emkan nadare too yek systemi mizan e kar kardane yek fardi az miyangin e kare mofide kolle system az yek hadde mahdudi balatar ya payin tar bashe, amma zaheran hanuz bavare baazi ha bar in hast ke baazi ha tamamie zendegishun o vaghfe kar kardan va baazi ha ham daran eshgh o hal miknan, behtar e az bahs hashie naram.
omid varam ke har che zud tar ye tekuni be khodemun bedim, lazem nis ke kolle 70 million ye ja too ye kelas amoozesh bebinan, adame 3 sale ham khub o az bad tashkhis mide, shoma emruz ke ba mashineshun miri khune ya jaye dige (age benzin dari) vaghti dari mibini kesi ghaz nade tormoz bezan ta inke age ye zamani un taraf ham poshte mashinesh bud bara un yeki tormoz bezane va mardom az ba farhang budan lezzat bebaran. age mesle man mashin nadarin vaghti savare metro mishin hol nadin khaheshan, metro tehran ja bara hame hast, eyne jahannam mimune zarfiyat nadare, harchi savar shi baz ja hast.
rahro an nist ke gahi tond o gahi khaste ravad---rahro an ast ke ahste va peyvaste ravad
kholse inja az bas hame chiz az bas tu jaye khodeshe ke gahi fek mikonam ye chizi gom shode, chera kesi asabani nemsihe, chere kesi man o nemipishune, chera kesi zirabe man o nemizane, chera stress nis, te tasadofi, ye davayi ye ghame kesi ee chizi....chera....
vaghti mikham bekhabam, gahi bekhodam migam ke in royast ya vagheiyyat? amma hamun ruz ke az khab boland misham mibinam ke vagheiyyate, ba'desh ye ah mikesham, na be khatere in fekra, balke be khatere inke be jaye sangak o barbariye dagh, bayad boland sham o nun o tost ro bezaram tu toster.
be omide didar,
Ibo
